Showing posts with label Writing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Writing. Show all posts

Thursday, July 3, 2014

For Terry Pratchett

Terry Pratchett is not the man who made me love writing, he is not the man who made me choose Science Fiction and Fantasy as my preferred genre to both read and write, but he is the man. He is the man who made me realize that sometimes a story can be so profoundly off the wall and still make you look at your own life in retrospect.

He is the man that turned a world into a disc, put it on the backs of four (used to be five) elephants, and then put THEM on the back of a giant turtle swimming throughout the cosmos. He did this, but still made you think about the issues facing Earth while reading about this world that was nothing like our own, yet somehow made us view ours differently.

He is the one who made me imagine a man in wet copper armor standing proudly on the top of a hill shouting at the top of his lungs that "ALL GODS ARE BASTARDS!" and being potentially struck by lightning.

He is the man who made me write, and not just the dark gritty SciFi and the High Fantasy stuff I thought was the best, he is the man who made me create sometimes ridiculous worlds, and fill them with characters who make you laugh and look inward all at once.

He is the man that I fought tooth and nail for a chance to go see in person.

I saw him, and in a brief moment of clarity he saw me, I never thought I would have a more memorable moment than when he answered my previously submitted question. Then I came home. Sir Pratchett suffers from Posterior Cortical Atrophy, as I learned from one of his documentaries it is a rare case of Alzheimers in which he can fill a cup with tea, place it on his counter, turn around, and when he turns back he doesn't see the cup anymore. It did not move, it is still there, he just literally no longer sees it. Because of this he no longer recognizes social cues, if you wave at him, he will not see it, it is one of the many reasons why he rarely saw fans at readings after his 'embuggerance' began to affect him.

I took photos that night, lots of photos to remember being in the presence of a master of writing.

Most photos were like this:

He is talking and looking at his assistant. But as I filtered through them to post them to my Facebook I found this one:
I may have just described his condition to you, but to me, I had learned everything I could about this man and his disease, so this photo floored me, like absolutely gobsmacked. A joke was said, I was laughing with the camera in front of my face taking pictures, and he saw me, he looked right at my camera, and I caught it.

Today I learned this man had to cancel an appearance in the UK at a convention because of his embuggerance has caught up with him. As a man who has adamantly refused to allow his disease to claim him, desiring only to accept death on his own terms, this can only mean one thing.

This man is getting ready to sit in his backyard on his own terms and greet death warmly with a handshake.

The day is coming when this man will no longer walk this Earth.

I do not look forward to this day.

I will never look forward to this day.

But I know it is coming and that is a comfort.

I will grieve for this man, harder than I would have thought, and it will affect me profoundly.

I suspect my future writings will include a man in all black, with a dry wit, and piercing eyes.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

The Legend of Sir Brenner

(I wrote this for a class, but I re-read and like it a lot, so I am sharing)


The Legend of Sir Brenner
            As Sir Gawain rode from court to find the Green Knight, the young Sir Brenner took a seat by Arthur. “My Liege” he began “with the brave Gawain off to see to that monster that tried to defile your court. I feel it is my duty to remind you who it was who told you this would happen.” The young knight prepared to speak but was interrupted by Arthur. “I know Sir Brenner, I know. Just as you predicted, a knight came, larger than any man, and just as you predicted he was inhuman.” Arthur adjusted himself and looked out over the court that was currently making itself merry, cheering for Gawain, and for all those lost, the revelry was needed for morale, but considering one of his own knights predicted this Arthur felt himself unnerved. “How is it, Sir Brenner, you come to know things before they happen?” Arthur turned back to the young black haired knight as he asked this. Sir Brenner looked around the room with his almost golden yellow eyes before looking back to the King. “I listen well, my king, to everything around me, not just the people, but the land” he glances around “everything has a voice if you are willing to listen to it brave King. I was taught as a young child by my grandmother, who some believed to be a witch, if it were not for my brave father, she would have been burned” he notices Arthur’s response and smiles “fear not brave King, for I am loyal to you and only you, none of that strange aloofness like that of the fey Queen Mab, or Morgan Le Fay.”
            “For that I am glad Sir Brenner” Arthur looks around before continuing “you are very brave to use those names in my court, for there are some knights here who may think speaking of them equals treason.” Young Brenner began to laugh as he grabbed a goblet and took a drink. “Serving you to my fullest is my only desire great King, and if it means not to sully your image” he lowers his voice to that of barely a whisper “I will keep my ears to the ground, and make sure no one knows of my knowledge of the more, sensitive, nature.”
            The party began to wind down in the court, and Knights began to disperse, as Sir Brenner was leaving he heard a familiar hail from behind. He turned to see Sir Gareth approaching; Sir Gareth was one of the few Knights of the Round who would actually talk to him most of the time, which puzzled Brenner to no end, as Sir Gareth never really talked to anyone. “Hail, Sir Gareth, what can I do for you this fine evening?” Sir Gareth embraced him heartily before speaking. “There were murmurs in the Court because of you again Brenner, many wonder how you can keep Arthur’s ear so tied up without being Guinevere herself in armor?” Brenner laughed at the assumption. “If they want to assume that the Queen has invaded their Court, we can allow them to chatter on about it like women themselves.” Gareth grabbed his hand, and the moment they locked wrists a vision hit Brenner like a kick to the chest from a stubborn mule.
            The vision that hit him involved Gareth, he sees Gareth being slain, by another Knight, he could not see it clearly, which as his visions usually go, meant the event was still too far away to see everything clearly. He never learned to control the visions, so according to his grandmother he was not a seer like her, but if he touched someone, sometimes he could glimpse what would occur in their future. He saw the arrival of the Green Knight months before it occurred, but could not tell the Knight was in fact green until about a week before. He learned to deal with the inaccuracies of his visions, and knew that he should not reveal them until things could be seen clearly. He was roused by Sir Gareth shaking him. “Sir Brenner, Sir Brenner! Are you ok?” Gareth sounded frightened, and Brenner stood up from the ground, he had fallen, that meant the vision was far too shocking for his system. He took Gareth by the hand, heartily slapped him on the shoulder and responded. “I am fine Sir Gareth, I just, suddenly felt ill. I might have had too much to drink this evening.” Gareth gave him a concerned once over before saying their goodbyes.
            Sir Brenner returned to his home, and sunk into a chair before a fire that his servant started before he arrived. Suddenly a chair moved up next to his, and an older gentleman sat down. “What is it I owe this fine evening for a visit from the legendary Merlin?” The man grabs a goblet from the nearby table and drinks from it smiling. “I can never surprise you little raven. Did you see me coming this time? Or have I become that predictable?” Brenner stood up and began to remove the bits of plate-mail he could without assistance. “You do have a habit of showing up whenever I have a vision, but more importantly I saw you in the shadows the moment I walked through the door. Stealthy you are not my friend.”  Merlin laughed at the remark. “Well my friend, I unfortunately am here to talk of matters of grave importance.” Sir Brenner looks into the fire and collects his memory before speaking “I saw Sir Gareth die. I am not sure yet the murderer, but I know he was a knight, and I am certain he is of the round table.” Merlin took a drink “Grave news indeed young raven, your eyes see far, and your ears hear all. Unburden yourself with this task, for I have a favor to ask. I need you to look forward into Arthur’s future for me. I have brought a lock of hair of course.” Merlin pulled the lock of hair from his robes and hands it to Brenner. Brenner takes it into his hand and rubs it between his fingers, and then is struck by that mule again.
            There is a battlefield and two opposing armies, Arthur is leading the charge from one side, and the other is a black mark on his vision. The fighting is fierce and many lives are lost. He watches as Arthur picks up a spear and plunges it through the black mark looking both troubled and relieved. Sir Brenner is about to look away when the black mark grabs the spear and forces himself further onto it until he is an arm’s length away from the King. A sword flashes and Arthur is struck upon the helmet, and blood flows from his temple. The King is mortally wounded. And then as quickly as it began, Sir Brenner is staring at the flame from his hearth. Sweat drips from his brow as he looks at Merlin with fear in his eyes. “Arthur, the King, you must tell him to never wield a spear in combat, his very life depends on it, I have seen it with my own eyes Merlin. I have seen the King die, but his murderer is hidden from my sight” He knew in his heart the vision was farther into the future than that of Sir Gareth’s death, but everything but the murderer were clear “you, you aided in my vision didn’t you, you allowed me to pierce clearly into the future.” Merlin looked gravely at his friend. “That I did, and yet even with my help you could not see the murderer. That is a very grave problem. I will tell Arthur of his future, and we must pray he abides our call.” Merlin stands and puts his hand on Sir Brenner’s shoulder “You stay safe my friend, and once again my raven companion has come in handy.” Sir Brenner embraced Merlin. The two then walked to the front door of Brenner’s home, and the chill of the night air wrapped around them when Brenner opened the door. Brenner nodded to Merlin and Merlin disappeared just as quickly as he came.
            “Quite the unusual Visitor for this hour, and this person” a voice said from the dark “what does Merlin want with you, Sir Brenner.” Sir Brenner searched for the source of the voice, and Mordred stepped out of the darkness. “Mordred, why do you come to my home at this hour?” Sir Brenner said without offering entrance to his home. “Why Sir Brenner, no hospitality towards a fellow Knight, whatever have I done to you to cause such disrespect?” Sir Brenner winced as his chivalry was questioned; begrudgingly he stood to the side of his door and motioned Mordred inside. Mordred nodded and grasped Sir Brenner’s hand and Brenner suddenly was back on the battlefield, and the dark spot was in sharp relief, it was Mordred. Mordred died, and as a final act killed Arthur. Brenner’s nose began to bleed as Mordred looked on in shock. “It…it’s you. You will betray our King, why would you betray Arthur?” Mordred’s face falls, and suddenly there was death in his eyes. “My reasons are my own, and now you know too much.” Sir Brenner looked at Mordred, there was a flash of steel, and his vision went dark.
            Sir Brenner was found the next day by Sir Gareth, both Sir Brenner and his servant were found beheaded. A ceremony was held in his honor and his friends wept at the loss of their dear little raven. Unfortunately Sir Brenner’s vision would come to pass, and his beloved King would die at the hands of Mordred the Dark Spot on the Legend that was Arthur. After returning from that bloody field, Sir Bedivere would tell anyone who would listen, about the battle, about his King, and most importantly about how with one of his last Earthly breaths Arthur had said “I have seen a Raven this day, black as night, with golden eyes that could pierce your soul, he has witnessed my folly, if only I had listened to him when I had the chance.”

Monday, September 12, 2011

The Re-Beginning

HOLY CRAP.

That is how I feel right now, like a whole load of that. New Semester, new goals, lots of other shit.

While this blog will be my home for writing/musing and what not, every once and a while I will rant about my life, it is part of who I am, so nyeh.

In the past month or so, my life has changed, I have started on a new diet of sorts, it is really just eating healthier, my roommate moved to California, I became single for the first time in two and a half years. That last part was a blow, but I picked myself up, brushed myself off, and moved on...sorta. ^_^

My classes this semester are desperately  lacking in English courses, the reason for this is my fault mostly. I did not have a good advisor until last semester, so before then, not knowing what to do, I took every English course I could. The result, 2 years or so to go until Graduation, and only 2 English Classes left to take. For those of you who love the language like I do, yes that was a gasp worthy moment, needless to say, I am taking all the other crap right now.

I am taking Biology 101, Social Dance, Racquetball, German 101, and COAS-Q110.

Social Dance and Racquetball are keeping me more active than I have been in a long time. Hopefully this will equal some sort of weight loss.

Biology is making me have flashbacks to High School, as is German but for a different reason.

Q110 is a waste...especially considering all of the other classes I have already taken.

My writing is on the back burner, but that burner is still on. I still have work I need to do on Bricks and Mortar, a new story I am formulating almost daily, a reading coming up where I will be reading a steampunk re-telling of the Greek myth of Pandora and her box...or at least her creation, and my long novel that I have been working on since High School still begs to have more work done.

This is my life now, hopefully it does not kill me, at least not until I get something published.

For those readers new, Welcome, for those old, Welcome Back. This is Me, this is what I am, and this is Leather Bound Spine.